The First Of The Year.

SO What does the year have in store for me?? Well what ever it has only god knows, I just have to really push myself to the fullest. I just pray that it will be better then the last, but as they say what you got out of it is what you put in to it, I admit I can be a lazy bastard and need to change it, but once I have something in front of me my Virgo ways start coming out and I don't finish it until I think it's perfect. That is my biggest down fall (or at least one of them) I'm a real simple guy in all, once a person really get to know me they tend to understand me much more then they did, I'm a very quiet guy to myself a lot, thinking always, I over think is what it is and it's very problematic at time's but it's something I can't help 95% of the time I'm by self. What I really want out of this year is to find  true love (but doesn't everyone??) I just wanna be able to start a family of my own, I mean I'm 31 now and  unemployed, what woman want's me??I'm a big guy what female want's a fat dude??I mean I'm not super big but cuddle (so I've been told...idk),maybe I ask to much???or maybe not enough and I'm tired of other people thinking they know whats best for me.....even more so when it come's to dating, they always try to hook me up with the biggest girl there is...(like come on) don't get me wrong I know big girls need love to but damn...what to big people gonna do but break the bed??(lmao). I just feel  that a female should get to know me in my next blog I'll tell everyone about this relationship I'm in that I'm confused about...so until next time bloggers followers peace love and respect and treat others how you wanna be treated !